Tonight was staged a great decoy,
The festive focus of our joy.
Men set aside the hostile ax,
And all obeyed the solstice pact.
I sought warmth from that common hearth.
To briefly stir my sorrow still heart.
I drank, I feasted, and I carried on.
Am I still here with Christmas gone?
I am contained on a white blank page;
With all things finished, no thing obtained.
Clouds surround and weather worsens,
Love, for warding, draws the curtains.
Coldness deadens my silent shout.
There's warmth within, but I'm without.
The Great Game is played; I a pawn.
Am I still here with Christmas gone?
I knew I'd have to pay my debt,
In bleeding either clear or red.
I chose to weigh with crystal tears,
An empty penance, they appeared.
But selfish flesh cannot continue.
Life's a stage; Death's a change in venue.
I flee from fate, myself withdrawn.
Am I still here with Christmas gone?
As if by some celestial force,
My choice seems bound to run its course.
I'll let my form be dashed and skewed,
Ere' ever I yield my love untrue.
From first breath I knew my part.
Child with a candle in the stormy dark.
Now Ravens crow the silver dawn.
Am I still here with Christmas gone?