I once had a job,
only to assure myself, that i cannot work...

I once saw a motivational speaker,
only to assure myself, a have no motivation...
  
I once saw a inspirational speaker,
only to assure myself, a have no inspiration...

I once went to confession,
only to assure myself, that I do not know God...

I once dated a girl,
only to assure myself, that love is confusing...

I once had a dog,
only to assure myself, that I cannot take care of anyone...

I once hung out in a crowd,
only to assure myself, that I do not like people

I once had a friend,
only to assure myself, that I need help

I once saw a psychiatrist,
who assured me, that i was crazy....