Walking in the dead of night Street lamps going dark as I walk under them Am I lost or not wanting to be found These things in my soul no one understands
Walking in the cool night air The thoughts rip through my mind These limits where broken Humanity stripped away leaving nothing
Craving to use this power The dark creeping in my heart Was this what I was intended for Blood thirst
Walking alone what am I looking for Knowing I was trained to win Cold and unforgiving Can I stay my hand a little longer
Nothing bringing me peace This walk though the ally Looking for trouble A proving ground
Fighting is what I know Am I a man fighting his demons Or the demon who killed the man It seems so far away
Am I looking to feel the rush Or maybe to step to the edge again Seeing if I can hold back Just.. a.. little.. longer..
Maybe if I can find some where In a place its deserved I would not feel so bad When I see the horror in peoples eyes
This thing Demon or a monster You see it in there eyes Thats why I call my self that
So I chose to walk alone Rather then see it again In the eyes of some one I love Push it all away and run
But looking up There is a light Glittering in the distance Warmth drawing me in
Slowly I walk to it Picking up speed Faster and faster yet I it hates the light
Freedom Embrace me Please don't fade Calming in its glow
This pain Struggling in the light Washing the dark out of me Please I beg
Leave the light on I am almost home
I am some one who struggles with post traumatic stress disorder. I used to hide it and try to be "normal" For a long time I pushed people away so I wont hurt them Tho some people would not go and I tried to help them understand the "Monster" but could never get the point So maybe this will help them understand what I mean and how they helped me so much by not giving up when I was hurting. Thank you