And then we fell asleep intertwined with each other
It felt so good to have somebody close to me like that
But see I don't want to please someone else
I want to be pleased
I want nights like that all the time
Where I can wake up from a nightmare and feel the warmth of another person next to me and tell myself that I'm okay
At least for now
That's why I don't let people leave
That's why I latch on so tight
If they leave then everything comes back
All the voices and the walls and the crying and the nights where I literally fear for my life They leave and they take all the happiness and love I gave them
So my body is empty and all the monsters and demons and bad memories come back and they never leave
They won't ever leave until I can find another person to give me that feeling
That's what's wrong with me