How long can I hold on

How long has it been

So many scars that never heal

Opening once again

I have bleed too many years

Grown cold inside

When will the tears cease

Numbness has yet to set in

Today I feel much hate

Hate who I am

Hate what I’ve become

I will make this change

I can not wilt away

I might be beat

I will not allow defeat

A sliver of determination rests here

I am holding this with much care

Awaiting the day when the flood rushes in

And all is to begin again.
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“Pain never really goes away….you just elevate and get use to it by growing stronger” ~ Unknown