I hate this stupid feeling of feeling like everyone hates me
I hate feeling like people think everything I say is stupid
I hate not being able to talk to my teachers
I hate that this stupid thing is slowly taking over my life
Just because of you

My mom has always gone through the same thing
Struggling with you taking over her life
Making her not be able to talk to people

Why must I freak out every time I pick up a phone to call
Why must I freak out when I need to ask my teacher for help
Why are you taking over my life
Why must I always do this
Why must you make me hate myself

Why can't I get rid of you
Why can't I forget the things that make me nervous
And do the things that make me happy

I can't because of you
I can't be normal because of you
I can't talk to people because of you
I can't do anything because you take over my life
You consume every inch of happiness I have

Why can't I just be happy
Why can't I just be normal
Why can't I just be myself
Why can't I just talk to people without freaking out

It's all because of you
taking over my once perfect life

But I guess I'll just have to learn to deal with you
That's what my mom did and it turned out great.