I would like to know
If you care about me
And love me as a friend

You know
I guess my problem
Is that ultimately
I don't care very much for my physical body

I think women get to have more fun then men
As they are multi *******
And can have fun with vibrators and ******

I would have liked to have fun like that
Being a guy is lame

Besides
It is highly unlikely
An attractive woman will like me

I am only 6 inches *****
And most beautiful women I talk to
Say that want 8 inches or more

I don't think that highly
Of the life you created for us God
Why couldn't you have come up with something better?

The more I live life
The more I see it as a computer program
Or matrix

The seasons repeat themselves
I go to work
Which is somewhat fulfilling
And sure, I enjoy my hobbies

But I'll probably never meet
A kind female friend
Or it will be years and years until I do

How I am I ever supposed to feel love
From another person
When I don't really like my body

I don't feel attractive
And I'm not

I am alone
Always alone
I am a stone
Left alone

Left alone to listen to
Thousands of hours
Of podcasts

I'm like a computer
Or android
Not loved very much at all
Left alone

I begin to die slowly
Waiting for a hug that never comes

Women don't pay me such attention
It must be because I'm not attractive

Oh well
Now I sound like a complainer

But I'm learning
I'm learning to always be alone
To believe in myself
And know myself

The world is a terribly ******* up place
Where thousands starve every day

I should just be grateful

Do you know how terrible it is
In a body you don't really want?

It Must be fun to be a woman
To have *******
And a ******
To have toned and **** legs

But I'm just this thing
This ugly thing

I would like to be judged by you
How would you rate me on a scale of 1 to 10
In terms of attractiveness?

I'm sure it would be very average or low
And I'm sure if we took a sample of women in your age group
And social standing they would agree

I might as well wear a t shirt
That says in capital letters UGLY