i'm trying so hard to write
but it's hard to have your feelings right at the surface
floating like a decaying fish in a lake
an eyesore
something you can't  stay away from
a leach  
******* your energy and happiness away

its hard when you realize that the love you felt wasn't love at all
and no matter how hard you try, it never will be

my feet hurt
my shoes are worn from the places i've been
i don't want to go anywhere else
i want to feel
i want to feel love again
i want to feel you in my arms
i want to hear you say those two words that i desperately need to hear
"i'm sorry"
but i know you'd be lying
and yet, my ears ring
and hope for those words to leave your lips

i'm trying so hard
but you're not trying at all
it's hard to talk when no one is listening