I love you And I want to hurt you and make you sit on your bed with your head in your hands, pushing on your eyeballs trying to hold the tears in. I want to make you anxious and make you check your phone every ten minutes And I want you to feel a sinking in your heart and stomach each time you do. I want to frustrate you to the point where you can't sit down and instead must pace back and forth or drive in circles Because **** it there must be some way out of this. I want to build you up and tear you down by your innocent and fragile heartstrings, dragging you carelessly behind me but holding on so tightly Because I love you.