What is the truth that you wont avow?
And if it's not what I'm thinking why is my love not allowed?
But you can't ever say never, no matter how-
much I know you want to... so what's wrong with right now?

You know I'll be up all night
you know that I'm not alright
you know the one whom I must fight-
within myself, my heart so tight...

What is with me? I'm a mess
what just hit me? A train wreck?
**** me, I'm stupid, just attack-
My delusions before they all come back

All that I can do is keep pretending-
just to stay sane, I keep your love never ending
within my poor heart, my soul breaking, mind bending-
To the beat of your heart, the pain unrelenting....

I pretend you're my pillow, asleep on my chest
comfortable with me, but I'm just like the rest-
of all of these guys, and you're just the best-
of all of my thoughts, impatient and stressed

I missed you all summer, I miss you right now
but i'm finally slipping, I'm taking a bow
guess I can't help it when my love's not allowed
but i still can't say never... I just don't know how..