I've walk the horror lines
I've had shadows take and break me
Bending me to their will for years to follow

I've told horrid lies
I've been deeply hurt and hurt others deeply
I've been consumed by the darkest of hell's madness
And I've been spit out- only to plunder further

But I thank God for all these moments
Sometimes even praise Her

For I have seen the prettiest of sunny skies
And felt the richest of earths
I have been brought to my knees in absolute joy, on several occasions
No pill- only real life ecstasy
I've sobbed in absolute love to the Heavens with my arms thrown high
Being consumed by how perfectly-imperfectly e truly is

I've laughed and danced with Angels
Racing them down mountains
Feeling their soft kisses tickle me while I pass them

I've sat whiling eating pancakes- chatting with Buddha about Jesus
I've held the wise hand of Pallas Athena
And feel her tall- glorious form continuously by me

I've felt the intoxicating- purifying of Divine love
Of All That Is and Greater
I've felt Her arms sweep around me and through me-
Hugging me to sleep
I've given Her a million kisses while she continues to give me a million and one

And,

I could ponder over and over again about the agony- the anguish
Stay **** in the unbearably horrifying moments
The ones that seem to rip my heart into a thousand unmendable pieces

Or,

I could smile at them
Release them
And let them go

I choose to wake-up and continuously swim in Heaven's pool of absolute magic  
Welcoming all that is humanly unknown to persist and exist

For -I- know, in All that is true and holy
I'll meet the laughter and feel the Greatest of love
Beyond forever and forever more ~~