So  I was seven days clean,
But that all went down in flames,
And so did mine and your forever's,
But it's all okay,
Because I just painted a really big picture,
Anywhere I could tonight,
And I really miss you,
Like You don't even know,
I put so much strength and fight,
That I didn't have in for you,
And I guess yet,
I still wasn't enough,
But it's okay,
Because I'll cry tonight until my eyes bleed,
Holding "our" jacket,
And wonder why I was so stupid,
It's okay,
I hear you voice and I brake,
But tomorrow I will put the mask on,
See you and pretend,
That I'm fine,
Sleep in the same area as you,
And feel nothing right?
THAT'S NOT ******* POSSIBLE!
But I will have to pretend it is huh?
But it's okay because,
I'll come home after my "great" time,
And come cry in my bed,
You know I would say no I'm not coming,
But, I promised,
And I yet to this very second still love you with everything,
So I want to see your face,
But as I picture it,
It brakes me..
But yet know,
I didn't cut over you,
I cut because I,
Lost the most amazing thing..