I see you.
You sit there
I watch you shake your leg
It’s always been your habit
I think about how it used to bother me
It doesn’t anymore
Nothing about you bothers me anymore
I see you.
I see you working
Doing what you’re supposed to
I’m not. I’m watching you
Like you used to watch me
You thought I never knew
Silly boy
I see you
I see you smile at what you’re doing
I remember making you smile
Sometimes I still do
And if I’m lucky, you’ll laugh
Oh, your laugh.
The way you throw your head back and your eyes light up
It makes me smile when I hear it
It makes me smile when I think about it
I see you
I see you look up and look at me
I quickly look away
You laugh silently and turn back to your work
I see you
I close my eyes and you are there
I think back on all the good times we had… and still do
I think of the things you sacrificed for me
I think of the things I sacrificed for you
I think of all the things we lost because of foolish decisions we made… together
I think back to our first kiss
The first time I had ever kissed anyone… and I chose you
It was so perfect. So right
I open my eyes and look at you
I follow the outline of your lips
I want them now
I loved the way they kissed my forehead, our last time together
I miss it
I miss you.
Every time I say I love you, I mean it with every fiber of my being
But you don’t know
And you never will.
Even so, I love you.