What round is this anyway? Somewhere in my subconscious I heard the bell ring signalling a new one. Now my ears ring. Equilibrium disoriented while I search for my footing. Skinned from glancing blows and bruised from taking solid punches.
Back when I was a desert hermit I decided to step back in the ring. I guess my fight wasn't over like I thought it was, like I hoped it was. I didn't have the heart to drown myself in whiskey or pull the trigger.
So here I am again facing down a capitalist bull dog and I'm the junkyard dog, the stray dog, shaved bare to hide the mange. My ears got holes in 'em, my flesh marred. My eyes are barely there, but I'm still here, passing up scraps going for the bigger meat.
My ribs show, shoulder blades sharp as the knife I wear and cannot bear to be separated with. My teeth are discolored, gums rolled back like my lips in a snarl, but they still cut. I can still land a killing blow against this raging, 'roided up beast.
I swallow depression, along with blood and caffeine. I close one eye against double vision, spit out bile and charge back in. I can still win this fight, can still earn my place. I'm here to stay, no matter how many times you cast me away.