every day i struggle,
trying to figure myself out.
trying to figure her out.

why cant she be with me?
how can i be with her.

it cant be her, right?
because she's perfect.

then, there must be something wrong with me...

not good looking enough?
too quiet?
my wallet is flat?
too fat?

knowing these obstacles,
i can't change the circumstances or to attempt to change your opinion,
but i can change myself.
i can be better.
i can improve.
for you.

however,
i can't just suddenly change on a dime,
because attitude takes time to build.

so every day i make strides.
every day i push myself to commit more effort,
every second i try to prove my value to you.
even if it is little.
every day moving forward, i earn my stripes.
i earn the name on my back.
every day i put the heat on, hopefully changing what i am tomorrow
so in the future i am what i want to be today.

i am willing to change.
i want to change.
and even if it isn't for this girl,
for the next one,
im willing.