i wish you didn't exist i wish someone with such a unique personality was merely fiction i wish that prepossessing face of yours wasn't real
i wish i could turn the handles of the clock in reverse so that i would've never met you
why did you have to casually saunter into my life and fill me with felicity? like it was nothing like i was just another experience
and completely ignore me and shut the door, our door as if you were content with that as if we were strangers again
i hate you for making me fall in love with you sheerly, by being yourself why couldn't you be chicanery and lies
writing this makes me want to talk to you but at the same time i want to ignore you like you did to me until the point that i almost doubted my very own existence
and i never thought that i'd be doing this because i tried it once and failed miserably but this time i'm determined i will maim and forget everything that you were once worth to me
and the sad thing is you probably won't even care because there are so many other people that adulate you just like i do you're probably used to all of this doting
i should've known before falling in much too deep into this dystopian nightmare
being in love with someone that couldn't care any less about you makes you feel inexorably forlorn and dense and just worthless so now i know what to do
i'll look back to this every time you visit my reveries i'm closing the doors and they're going to stay shut forever
i just need to rant about how stupid everything is right now.