Gold watch too big for my little wrist
A tie at my neck
Red laced around me,
Can't say anything back to that text
"I adore you."
Don't mean nothin'
Comin' from you.


Pairs of tears sliding down cheeks
I type and type what I feel
Can't you see that I never wanted you to leave
But all my friends and I
We hold cameras in our little hands
My lips were never more red.

Hours and clocks echo my name
I do what I can to inspire
Self loathing has become my middle name
But I describe a beast, with red and yellow fangs
"BOOM!!"
I said, my voice strong and monstrous
Scrapes in the snow
I've still got my scar
To lick upon.


A past love, from too too long ago
Wants to say, "Glad you are well. Lets find time."
But my lips part and know.

Papa says beauty is the most valuable thing
For little ole me
But what if he doesn't answer me?
But he will, there will be no deactivation
But I won't sit in front of my computer screen
Check my email a thousand and one times
But I confess, I already did.

I remember the skeptical blue eyes
And the coy grin that left so many
Bite marks behind
I wonder if you think of me
And it feels so good, for you to see me
Fly above.

When eyes take in the environment
The snowy filled ground
And 5 year long relationship with the Philadelphia
***** city dreamin'
A text away from a man or two
A friend who goes through the same issue
A bottle of wine, we deem "Goddess Juice."
I will not watch my life pass me by.


**** *regret.