I try to fight back
Only to lose yet again.
I try to ignore you,
Only to be tormented until you’re noticed.
I try to rid myself of you,
To bring you down
The same way you’ve brought me down
I try to push you out with thoughts of happiness
Only to be reminded of my mistakes.
I hope to rid you with my numbness,
Only to find you’re the one causing it.
You’re my demon,
My nightmare,
My biggest fear.
You control me with your torment,
I’m too scared to ask for help.
I fear what others would say,
What others would think,
I’m alone in this battle.
Or so I thought.