the wanting of something
   that one thing
that captures my soul
becoming obsessive
in my desire for it

constantly searching

desperate need
   to have it
consuming all thoughts
taking over all feelings
   blinded
     numb
       frantic
trying to escape
the nagging
            annoying
    pull
of this one thing
hollowed by a hunger that won't be satisfied
psychotic with the preoccupation
of finding it

but frightened by the thought
of actually acquiring it.

*am i insane?