I deserve this
After clawing the earth with my bare fingers,
until ******
after laying down my walls
every bit turned to crumbling ruble
layers beneath my feet I think
I deserve this
after turn and tear and twist,
I think I deserve this.
this space where for once
if I work hard they notice
and I don't have to tote your body around
I'm no longer responsible for your baggage
no longer damaged
and while
i'm sorry for your sadness
i'm still so weary of your madness
and not once has this felt as tragic
as playing your statements in circuits
chafing psyche tell callous ,
I deserve to be softer now
after so many days of rain
I think I deserve to shine
like the kissing sun on my skin
these last few days.