I thought about sending you my poetry link tonight
but immediately resisted the temptation
why should I give you the satisfaction of caring

you probably ****** the school **** tonight

im beginning this act where I don't care about you
and I don't care what you do
and I wish that was true
I wish you didn't consume my thoughts
every day
every hour
almost every minute

all the guys I talk to
are only a temporary high

they are a temporary filling for the hole you left in my heart

and maybe im the dumbest human being for still loving you through everything you have put me through
but I have never really been common sense smart
and maybe all of this is a lesson
to tell me what I deserve

but I still know I don't deserve better

and it just hurts
it hurts when I try and fall asleep
knowing you're probably not thinking of me
but another girl that you're probably just using

and I wonder when you'll realize that you actually liked me for me, not my body
but all these other girls won't mean **** after you please yourself
and I wonder when you will realize I actually mattered
and I wonder when you will realize you lost me

you lost me
and I lost myself
and I hope I can get back to the happiness I held before I met you
im just learning to live without you
how is it so easy for you babe?