Something feels so wrong,
Getting real confused,
Is it just me or am I
Just being used?

Is it something I lack?
What am I missin'?
I'm in the edge, guna crack,
No one's tryin'a listen,

Every time I realise that,
It turns out too late,
Is this some kinda punishment?
Or just harsh fate?

My heart fiercely shaking,
Tryin'a stop all the aching,
Slowly feeling myself breaking,
So many lies and people faking,

Just a misunderstanding?
Or the plain truth?
I still doubt myself,
Even though there's proof,

No surprise in betrayals,
Just tryin'a deny reality,
Wonder if it's the same with males,
Is this really community?

Why do I keep forgiving?
When I'm the one who's hurt,
Tryin'a avoid a useless fright,
Their logic states they're right,
And suddenly I'm at fault?

The over friendliness I get,
Can't tell if it's an illusion,
Two faced people, I bet,
Trust no one, is that a solution?

What if I hurt someone?
I keep asking, what then?
I end up being that person,
Wounds ripping open once again,

Can't reach peaceful ends,
Just endless twists and turns,
Every path I take just bends,
Nothing left to hold on,
Everything slowly burns.

~A.d | 11 Aug 2014