A year later, but, sometimes, in the night, he's there, whoever he was, his clammy hands, groping. Sometimes it comes when I am alone and scared, sometimes it's me, in a bed with my best friend with my back turned and I'm scared for no reason.
But you know, it wasn't even the real thing. It was my fault, I was so drunk, I couldn't push him off me, he didn't even really get me, and I passed out straight away after so was it really that bad?
But it was it's still a night terror.
Michael pulled me out of the slump. I didn't want him or love him, but I trust him, he showed me how to feel again, but I couldn't cuddle him. Couldn't touch his skin, or face away from him.
The creepy crawlies run over me and the bad dreams pick away at my conscience.