January 14, 2015 1:08pm

I've been falling behind in feeling alive;
my eyelids feel heavier than my limbs.
The task of breathing requires more effort;
I don't think it's from smoking is what scares me.
Lacking energy to perform subconscious acts
has me wondering if I'm really living.
Sometimes my whole body goes numb
and all I feel is my heartbeat pulsing throughout me,
pulsing as if to emphasize an end growing near.

-*newportsmooths h.g.