"I'm scared to leave..
but I can't return
home."
I would have tried to stop you.
but would you have let me stop you?
This is all straight ********
It was not a selfish act
kissing that semi,
and I accept that.
What I do not accept,
is that I feel I could have done
something.
You turned very quickly from a boy to a man.
Caring for your sisters, being a father figure.
Jenny wasn't there, wasn't the mother she needed to be.
And she still isn't.
Whose fault is it?
I NEED SOMEONE TO BLAME.
Taking your own life can't just be passed off.
I am so happy you are at peace,
but what I fear is what you left behind.
The littles are helpless,
trapped by her, this.
How do I help them escape?
Is there a way?
I can only imagine what pushed you to your limit.
I wish I could have told you I struggle with the same feelings.
I wonder, could it have stopped you?
Is it better you being dead?
…is that an inappropriate question to ask?
I miss you, brother.