Sometimes I wonder Did everyone else get some sort of secret instruction manual when they were born? How to keep friends? How not to mess up every relationship you've ever had? Romantic or not? How to experience love at first sight?
It's exhausting I wonder how people put up with life
I was born without it This instruction manual Because I've heard the phrase "We knew from the moment we first saw each other." Knew what?
I've heard "We've been best friends since forever, we knew it from the moment we met." But how!?!? How do you know the good from the bad at a first glance? Is it a pheromone I just can't smell? Some secret language I never learned?
It's so hard I don't know how people keep living I don't know how I keep living I'm not afraid of death But I'm not going to welcome it with open arms Even if the thought of it gives me hope of going home
Because if I were to welcome death Everyone around me would fade away
I stay alive for the same people That I can't tell if they're good or bad But I've grown accustomed to them I suppose it's because even the bad people deserve sympathy
Do I deserve all the crap they dish out? No But I can handle it
Have I ever met someone and just "knew" Not in my life But I've heard it said about me so it's a half victory
These stupid misfits I wonder Were they born the same as me? Can they tell the good from bad? I wonder If they genuinely care about me
Or maybe I'm just a fool being used Sometimes I really wonder