Writing is my escape
I write to disarm the contentious feelings I have
Because Nobody understands me
I know I lack empathy
I know because I cut it out of me
I function better without it
Smiling is my defence
It's my protection from people
It's my recompense
If they think your fine they leave you alone
They assume your fine that you'll make it home
Act dangerous people ignore you
Act homicidal they completely avoid you
I prefer the latter
Saves me the trouble of an emotional splatter (that feeds
my demons)
Less people less problems
I feel the haze that prevents me from finding who I am
It's clearing and I'm scared of what I see...