ive been in bad places before.
ive been in amazing places before.
and im not really sure where i am right now.
black is my bad, white is my amazing,
and right now all i see and feel is hazy.
of course i see color - those of you who dont understand me-
i see the brown and green of the trees, the yellows and reds of flowers.
the heavenly in-betweens that have no name.
yes i see those but you dont understand what i am trying to convey,
i feel a darkness, and black hole swallowing up, trying to take my existance,
but i feel a lightness, an open-ness, something so calming...
but now? now i am gray.
i cant tell if i feel sad or mad or anything negative,
i cant tell if i feel happy and excited or anything positive.
so i am gray, i am a mix i am in such a strange state.
so i am not sad, and i am not happy.
i just simply am.
and i am okay with this.
i dont have to ask why i am sad,
i dont have to wonder how long i would be happy.
i am simply in between...
i just simply am.