maybe i'm spending
so much time thinking of you
because for so long you spent your time longing for me.

you said that you waited two years for me,
which no offense
i have a hard time believing,
but maybe i just have trust issues in what you tell me.
that may be because i look back at old messages of
"I will never leave your life you mean a lot to me"
and a few "All I want is for you to be happy"
the one that hits me the hardest is "the last thing I'll do is hurt you"
it's almost comical because what do you think you're doing right now??
i can assure you that i'm not in your life anymore and i clearly don't mean anything to you. what i'm feeling is just about the farthest thing from happiness and you've caused me more pain than everyone else combined.

so sorry that i can't take your word anymore.

so those "two years" may not have been spent over me but just in case they were,
i would like to apologize for taking your time away.

if i could do anything giving you it all back would be my first option.

also,,
sorry to disappoint because it didn't even take two months for you to realize i'm not worth it.

time is the most valuable thing in this world since it's the one thing we know we won't have an endless supply of.

so maybe next time put just a little bit of your time into thinking about what you're getting yourself involved with. i wouldn't want you to **** up this badly again.