January 31 2015 "Look at this: the young girls giggle at nothing. The boys are after me. Nothing ever happens. They don't laugh hard and they don't yell. They don't get hurt or die and they don't laugh either." -Anais Nin
how many weeks are left in winter again? the sun decided to come out today, did it not? streaming half heartedly through the window slats of the bathroom.
i am flicking the lighter sitting on a mattress just going through the motions it's just standard procedure saying to him "listen i'm probably going to write about this"
and thinking if i'm stupid enough, show him the finished product anything you say or do can and will be used against you in a court of law lots of "nice kids" i spend time with i feel sort of inflicted on
or for?
staring at the ceiling and "hey this feels like a Bukowski poem" and then, trying in my best impersonation of the drunken Fritz:
"met this girl today/we sat on a mattress and smoked and- um, we just met today, and um, you know." then standing up afterwards
with the gross marlboro gold inbetween my mouth don't worry, i won't smoke it inside. throw my pack on the bed,
lots of nice kids i've written about that are just that and i frown at nassau hall coming up the