The last time I heard your voice, you told me this.
"Smile, laugh, live life to the fullest. Focus on whats important and nothing can go wrong. Tell your brother you love him, even if he pulls your hair and calls you names. You only have one brother, and that is him. Treat your parents like they deserve the world, because they gave you theirs. You are smart and important, do not forget that. I love you bear."
But the thing is, later that day, you left me.
YOU left my family. YOU left everyone.
I am shaking with pain. I cant touch water without thinking "i wonder if this is the same temperature it was the night you decided to jump"
THE NIGHT YOU DOWNED A BOTTLE OF TYLENOL AND JUMPED INTO THE OCEAN WITHOUT ME.
WITHOUT.
ME.
and for that i am forever angry.