am i admiring
or envying

do i wish it were me
instead of you

are you special
because you're happy

are you more deserved
than me
than the rest of us
lonely hearts

have you found
because you've searched
or were you found
by someone searching

i'm in limbo
   i think

i am neither lost
nor do i want to be found

i'm not searching
but will i find
if i look

why you and not me?