All the years I have spent,
crying out in pain.
Harboring all this hurt,
trying to fight against the shame.

One small poem breaks the wall,
that I built to protect my heart.
In those words I re-lived,
all that hurt me from the start.

As I cried I thought of how,
the ones I loved, I couldn't protect.
And wondered if there was a way,
I could move on from regret.

I see my brothers crying eyes,
so young and so confused.
I see my mum cringing when,
I told her the dreadful news.

I see my dad hide his tears,
the turn away from me.
I see my sister try to understand,
but she could never see.

Now I see, you hurt and sad,
fighting against your tears.
It all comes back and hurts me to,
even after several years.

I cried and cried,
and tried to defend my heart once again.
But this time, it was just to much,
this time I felt the strain.

My heart I fear cannot take,
one more break and keep beating.
I don't no what do do because,
my strength, it is fleeting.

So here I am, this is me,
standing broken and in pain.
Trying  hard to protect,
my loved ones that remain.

I promise I will do my best,
and truly give it all.
I'm trying to put back the pieces,
but please, don't hate me if i fall...