The hours pass it's gone too fast and all I do is lie awake the clock ticks slow but the minutes don't last like they used to years have moved right along and they waved goodbye as I tried not to cry and all  these feelings Ive strung along there's nothing left of me to remember this pain is all I've ever known yet a smile 's still the only thing I've ever shown how am I supposed to feel how am I to know your real my heart is much to drunk on hate and how do I grow ******* faith      could there really be a light am I wasting all my time is there more than this monster in this mind that shows me horror and confusion I can't bare to sleep I'm still waiting to awake from this nightmare forgetting to breathe only gets easier when everything you've ever known to be right has suddenly all been wrong and I don't know that I'll ever be strong enough to save me from myself