I miss the sound of his voice, the low timbre, the quiet growl spoken softly into the phone, into my ear, that puff of breath that tickles with each hard consonant. I miss the heat from his skin through the fabric of his shirt when he held me close. I understand, now, the songs which croon of one last time, of once before you go. I wasn’t offered that last kiss. that last lingering mix of warmth and salt, of pleasure and tears that says goodbye.