for a moment, the waters clear, and the mud stops swirling, and the dust settles on the rocks I can see up from the riverbed and no longer what I see is just a reflection of you when I look to my right, you aren't lying next to me like I thought- the light is streaming through my bleary eyes, a cold-water shock and I'm awake, but still drowning.
this is about those moments when you can see through your own delusions... not specifically about me... but do I really need a disclaimer at this point? none of these are really about me