You left in me the vacancy of almosts, a house I created in my heart that was never lived in; now the wallpaper peels and the floorboards creak with the weight your feet never placed on them and I sit alone on the roof, too scared to go in, staring up at the night sky, looking at the moon, thinking about the constellations we formed when we touched-- how you dipped my neck back, pressed your lips to me, grazed at my veins with your teeth, left bruises but never quite let me bleed.
A week ago I was in your arms, trying to let my guard down. I sit alone now-- too scared to go in, too scared to try again.