A million bags packed
Lets stuff them in the car, transportation so hard
I can ride with you, ride with you anywhere.
But ******* everything is so expensive.

Push the panel back, lets watch it all dissolve into the ground
A witness to your life, thats something I've always wanted
I told you, as we carried each piece down old stairs
"How cinematic is it that the beginning of us is with the destruction of your past."
I watched you say goodbye to it all, but you didn't say much at all
A cigarette in your mouth
I told you, you choose to go. Embark on your next journey.
I wanna be your future, I coyly think--while I write you little notes.

Wetness and water filled my face the past 48 hours
But I just love to hide in your closet like a little girl
Pour red wine in your hair the night before
Cling to you like a little bitty thing
The word boyfriend--while looking at you
Would taste so good.

I woke alone this morning, okay with the day
I need a personal day, I tell myself
But dear God, its so good to hear from you
Don't stop, reach out, send me your passion from afar
But neither of us really utter the word love
Nothing wrong with the unspoken,
Lets earn it and not say it within a goodbye.

A grilled cheese, fries I stopped eating, beer after beer
A girlfriend and I discuss all the things
You would always smile and laugh
At all the little things, I use to say
But cameras all around, scripts, impromptu
I find peace and lightness all around.

Struggling to grab all of my millions of bags
The talkative taxi driver was ready for me
To tuck and roll out of the car
So hard to say goodbye.
But please, lets not let that be the last time.
We kissed, I think, a total of 4 times.
Stress, and tension, I promised you
You would make it there on time.

The last kiss--we held for as long as we could in that moment
A painful, hard, lasting, goodbye for now.
I got out, putting my brave look on
Glanced back in the car at your beautiful face
And marched on, flung my bag on my back
Tried to put away my grimace and welling eyes
Going forward like a strong little china doll
I turned to look back.


Through the tinted window,
Your eyes, lips, nose, bearded face watched me go
I stood for a moment as the car drove you away from me
My strength and facade broken
I blew you a kiss
We stared after each other until after you were out of sight.

You watched me go
I watched you go
And thats when I knew
This ain't over.