notes from my brother include moments of outage.  typo, testament.  I’ve never experienced anything so awful as talking.  during *** I pretend I am a surge protector.  my death is over.  I slip into god and it’s painful bad.  sorry, I took the ******* my phone had in it and made him write this.  back to god I feel I’m praying him through the first break-up he remembers.  headlines rip me the **** outta mom.