Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
Jan 2015
I've been searching for the longest time for a place to begin...
the life in which I should call mine, inspired by a hazy ora.

I find myself just jumping the gun
just looking to be done
with this search...oh when is it over?
To find independence and stability...
to find not the needle ,but a certain piece of hay within the hay stack.

The search to begin has happened over and over,
every time I think I've found it...
there I go pushed back to start, forced to start over.
Except I am not a piece of plastic within a board game
more like a hamster running on a wheel,but for what gain?

Once again finding a place to begin again...
a new set of friends inside of a new city...
I think to myself " LOL the fun never ends."

I set myself up,
pretending to be cautiously sober
from the depression that trapped me inside of such a hellish roller coaster.

As I begin to find a place to begin again,
here they come my father's words...****..
"Just dig yourself out of the whole, that you've dug."

****! I wasn't supposed to remember that part!
...Not in my place to begin again.

I'll just have to retrace my steps...let's go back to the start

"I once was a girl with depression, but I decided to get over it through repression, and here we are today, not to remember your father's words of blame...don't remember that, it's not important."  (Rant over)

A voice says: Hi, welcome back Adrian
this is your place to begin again
and if not...

Well it's about time depression left you dead.
Adrian Rae Brown
Written by
Adrian Rae Brown  Ohio
(Ohio)   
601
   stΓ©phane noir
Please log in to view and add comments on poems