Black box breaking Slowly breaking Slowly I saw the cracks I saw them ripple down her back I saw the freeze and thaw of nations The renaissance and death and renaissance I saw the wealth and worth of world powers I saw them crumble I was there And I am here I read it all and wrote it down I saw it all and wrote it down I kissed the survivors and wrote it down I saw the earth in its entirety I fell in love and vomited and fell in love I saw her in her emptiness I saw her sway in the winds The winds grew cold and colder She grew old and older And so distraught Mangled Destroyed Derailed Demolished Stripped of poise and polish Stripped of it all I saw her disintegrate I saw her fall Still I, I still I always standing Watching still Always seeing Standing and seeing, I Drinking tea Calm, cool, collected, serenity
Now your turn You see me See me walking down the street See my waist-long wavy hair Blonde and sparkling in the sun Lipstick smile Hipbones and cheekbones chiseled and deadly Long leg strut down the runway Of center town sidewalks The world is my oyster See my backpack full of alphabetized books Handwriting neat and perfect Pen behind my ear I’m ready For all of this See me smoking cigarettes out my dorm room window Listening to Mozart And smiling fully when the strings jump in See me on the park bench reading Long Russian novels I inhale the pages like heartbeats In-hale Ex-hale In-hale Ex-hale Breaths and beats fully synchronized to the flipping of pages And to the Metronome Mozart wrote me.
Don’t be deceived I made my world and destroyed it and made my world Independent to a fault I made my living off stitching together broken bones And melting old forgotten thrones Sculptures that said I needed no one No one could keep up anyway I ran too fast I ran all day And kindof expected someone to care But no one ever has I was never worth the trouble Pull me out from my own rubble And kiss me if you can No one knows my secret plan to live an embarrassing convention All this glass is just pretention I glued it together myself I wrote my own pamphlet for self help I pieced together my own face I sculpted my own form and adorned it I broke my own heart and mourned it I arrived and left and arrived And here I’ll stay Black box breaking Slowly breaking Slowly I saw the cracks I saw them from the start Death and renaissance and death ***** and love and *****