I've had enough of being weighed by my depravity. The more I give in, I lose all of my complacency. I trap myself in my head hoping someone will bring me out but All I'm left with are high hopes and even higher expectations. The more I rely on people, the more I'm let down. But what am I to expect when I'm reaching out of the water and they too are along side me all waiting to drown? My thoughts, my expectations, they are my own. That's why I sink deeper and deeper in this hole. They corrupt me within my bones. The beautiful nature seems to fade as if it were never known. Enough is enough. My depravity took too much from me. I'm an adopted son. Not the abandoned one my mind makes me think.