if you've never collapsed in the snow in front of a fresh grave then I don't want to hear it

3 months feels like 3 eternities without you on this earth

it shatters every part of me to think that you're decomposing, that you're slipping away

tonight, your 3 month death anniversary, I drove to you, got out of my car, and fell to my knees in front of you. my handprints are in front of the flowers people left for you. I was there.
were you there to?
thank you for sending me him, I think you meant it as something to make me happy in the midst of losing you. he wants to see you too, with me. we'll come soon, my angel.
I decided to drink and now I'm too drunk and I can hear your laugh and the sound of it is slamming against the sides of my skull while my face is covered in tears. drinking was a bad idea. can everyone please go away while I melt?
I miss you
I love you
I hope you're safe
this is real life
tell me if you get this
forever, Chris.