Have you ever sat on a bench alone when all you can utter is a grown? At rock bottom thinking negative not really wanting to live! Problems insurmountable no money nothing in life you find funny.
Can't be bothered to wash or shave knowing you have become knave. Not to others in crime but to yourself your being left on a dusty shelf. Every thought is nearer to despair others around you're not aware!
Wallowing in self pity I've been there eyes glazed you just stare. A day seems an eternity without hope pills or hang by the rope! I did overcome those dark ages filled with silent rages!
I had to find the strength and seek ask for help learn not to be weak. But some can't face the demons inside no matter how hard they tried. Deeper into themselves they travel to complicated to unravel!
I can only hope your answer will be found.
The Foureyed Poet.
The onset of depression when I was in my teens I went through this period. In the end I could only help myself.