You showed up into my life when everyone had left.
My boyfriend just walked out on me and i was alone.
I needed a new home, someplace to go.
You walked through my door
Smiling with wide eyes and open arms.
I didnt realize your feelings towards me till that one night i fell down and got hurt,
You carried me in your arms,
Up the stairs
And through the hall
You stayed with me all night
To make sure i was alright.
I started to feel something,
Just one butterfly.
Until that night ontop of the water tower
All our friends climbing so high we could touch the stars with our finger tips,
Sitting side by side,
Smoking cigarettes
I could feel your hand inch closer to mine,
Till your warmth spread through out me and thats when i knew you'd break my heart.
After that night we filled our days with something close to love but not quite.
You always got drunk with our friends, and from the corner of the room where i stood, i watched you laughing so hard you'd cry,
I could see your smile spread from eye to eye.
You made the whole room feel warm,
Your brown eyes ******* me into your arms
And when our lips met, i felt everything.
Every butterfly,
Every nerve in my body,
Every twitch of muscle,
Every part of me was on fire,
And just a couple days later you became my worst nightmare,
I saw the darkest part of you
And i never was able to look at you again.
You changed me in ways that i didnt even know were possible.
You gave me a living hell,
And im broken
Unable for my wounds to ever be mended again.
I never thought i loved you, until i started writing this down.
And now i realize,
It was real.