So about a minute before I got on poetic voice,

I was thinking about my self-esteem.

My lack of it.

And I realized that a few years ago,

I trusted myself,

And I believed.

But...

Not so much anymore.

I have no idea why.

I wish I was still like that.

But for some strange reason,

I tend to want to protect what I am now.

But I never protected myself when I was younger.

I want to know why I want to protect myself now,

A person with horrible self-esteem,

But I didn't want to protect myself a few years ago.

Because honestly,

When I was eleven I couldn't really care less about myself,

It was others and the world.