Society tells me my size 22 hips Are disgusting That the hole in my lip Is atrocious My pointed nails, my blue hair, my black clothes Are products of the devil I am given freedom of religion yet, I am condemned because my Goddess is not your God I am poked and prodded at because my sexuality goes beyond laying with a man In my state, I cannot marry a women because society is so entrapped in their perfect religion How is this a fair world if I cannot be me? As a woman, I am expected to keep my opinion to myself, bear children, and serve a husband Yet, I am independent and creative I thrive to make my own path To be successful in myself and those closest to me To be unique and to question everything I will not conform to a society in which I cannot think for myself
I believe in what cannot be seen Therefore, I am crazy I work better alone; think better on my own I keep my words in my brain because they aren't the same as everyone's So, I am depressed My body composition is curvaceous and ***** So I starve myself to get the body society has entitled as perfection But, what of my body? Do I live how I see fit? Hiding from mirrors and cameras, covered up by the baggy clothes boys wear on a day to day basis Or do I entomb myself in a decaying corpse to live a short life of perfection No. I will walk with my head held high and my skirt blowing in the wind Because I will not conform to society's definition of perfection
I crave affection in the physical form Therefore, I am a **** But you don't know my back story You do not know how my entire life I was deprived of the emotions I so desperately craved I don't know how to feel when a feeling is all that is offered to me So, I remain alone Because I am not beauty in society's eye Therefore, I am not your first choice Even though everyone says 'do not judge a book by it's cover' I am cast away before you get to know me Before you know my talents, my hobbies, my aspirations in life, my goals, my struggles, the reasons behind my words Because society has been taught to love with the eyes and not the heart What about the pigmentation of my skin complexion? Society automatically disregards me as a troubled teen That I will just become another statistic of the African-American populace But I say I won't Because my ancestors fought and died for their freedom, therefore I should fight for my say in my life I will not be fat-shamed I will not be ****-shamed I will not be black-shamed Because I cannot and will not conform to a society in which I cannot be me