I want to sing you songs
and make your ears bleed with the beauty
I want to hug you
and stab you in the back like you stabbed me
I want you to think I'm amazing
I want you to hate yourself
I want to accept your nonexistent apology
I want to cry blood from the cuts in my heart and soul
You mean it in how you treat me right?
You actually hate me
I want you to hate her
Why don't you love me...
Why do I love you?
Why are you good enough for my feelings?
My heart drops when I hear your name
Is that fear or longing?
Is this how I'm supposed to feel?
When did confusion become my disease
I am happy
*I am dying on the inside