I don't know how to start because words can't express how you have made me feel these past few years. You were everything that I wanted and didn't want at the same time. You bruised me in the worst way possible and there were days when I felt like I was dying. You've made me feel so good just by glancing at me. I know you are never gonna look at me. Probably glance but definitely not look. I liked you way too much that I considered it as love. I was so stupid. It was reckless. What we had was reckless, you were reckless. I hate you. ******* I hate you. You and your pretty face and stupid personality. Your laugh, **** it's making me feel like i'm everything and nothing at the same time. You were my sun and everyday felt like I was sun burning. We promised each other a lot of things and it hurts because all of those were already broken, if not, they will be broken eventually. I compared everyone to you because I thought you were so good for me. I didn't even know that it was destroying me already. How freaking unrealistic of me. I wanted a guy that will make me the happiest girl in the word. You kinda did the opposite and that left me confused. I liked bright eyes but yours were the opposite. It ***** because everything felt so fake and superficial to me. I remember dropping everything when you asked for my help. Last time I check which was a millisecond ago that  I will always  be here for you even when you won't need me anymore and I was right. No matter how much you push me away, I'll always care, but now, it's getting a bit tiring to the point where in I'm finding you boring, forgetting how I found you fascinating in the first place. Now I'm happy and I couldn't ask for more.  *well that ended well