daddy was dead & i liked being used I shoulda probly taken a shower Rinse off the fog I drew on invisibility & youth & barrel gun'd eeyes that mirrored only dice & worlds of ice & rust & sweet white dust & tattooed drums
their pumping pain
into my sweet sweat 16 yr. old frame there i was on some polar bear closed shop rug midnight. naked. he had taken my clothes off. I didn't wanna ****. i wanted to cuddle this stranger cuddle the fluffy bear beneath my back under the body i refused to look @ his hand on his belt buckle. caching zip. daddies last breath. 1 blk
away. 15 min.s b4 here now i lay prayers in the grave men smothering my face unshaven memory. mind games.